My main stim is toe walking and rocking. Stims I stopped doing because I noticed people looking at me weird was hitting myself
I compiled a list of things I think would get me a positive diagnosis.
- Walking on my toes because I hated how the floor felt on the soles of my feet
- needing my fiance to force me to try new foods
- the bathroom and stove fan driving me up a wall, same with lawn mowers. I think its that low humm i hate. its a really uncomfortable sound that i need to stop immediately otherwise i get pissy
- I have always had a hard time making and keeping friends
- I have a hard time articulating my thoughts and feelings verbally without sounding like an idiot
- I need plans, i love them. I just suck at making them.
- I hate to travel....i also hate driving but idk if thats related
- Replaying the same verse of a song over and over and over for hours
- strong smells put me off
- I can hear the smallest sounds in my apartment, but often can't seem to hear when my fiance is talking right next to me. I remember as a kid getting my hearing tested often to find out my hearing was fine
- Was extremely dyslexic and had speech problems as a child
- I suffer with social anxiety and depression and regular ol' anxiety :/
- social activities make me anxious, loud places are over stimulating. I get snappy when out for too long
- social makes me feel drained
- the fabrics used to make sweaters drive me crazy. I cannot wear them no matter how "soft and comfortable" someone tells me they are
- I get over heated easily or cold easily
- chewing on my hair is nice
- standing and rocking from side to side
- at work i rock in place, kick my legs out while holding the counter. constantly popping my knuckles. my box cutter can slide up and down and it clicks so i do that.
- generally less stressed at home
- being completely obsessed with a subject. I rarely keep the same interest but sometimes i go back to the same ones and research and learn the hell out of it all over again.
There are stims I did as a kid that I rarely ever do now
- pressing my fingers into my eyes while they're closed so when i open them i can see the colors
- staring into lights so i can see the colors change and the little bright light move
- plugging my ears and making Zzzzzz sounds or humming
- banging my head against the wall
- hitting myself in the head to get the buzzing out
I dont know if its autism related, but i like to speak in a childish voice.
Well I'm done rambling. good night world
I'm going to seek diagnosis soon wish me luck
